This is my very first new year as an orphan. My Dad passed 25 years ago, and my Mom, 1/11/19. It has been a year of reflection and reinvention, mainly because I did not know my place in my new reality. I've never been so scared or lonely as I have been this past year. I'm slowly coming around and realizing that my only responsibility is to myself, and that if I don't take care of me, I will lose me. It felt strange and extremely selfish to concentrate on myself, and actively protect myself from invaders of my peace...now not so much. My finances took a hit, but that was due to me not being a good steward of them, again, live and learn.
2020 is a building and rebuilding year. I will continue taking care of my health and putting my finances back in order. Thankfully they haven't fallen too far, but enough so that I feel the sting. I will also continue "old lady proofing" my home by making changes in the house gradually so that I can be safe as I age. I'm ½ way to my goal of having a smart home. Next up are shower stall bars, ADA compliant commodes and of course tweaking my already state of the art interior and exterior security systems. I'm looking forward to putting in a garden of plants, fruits and veggies in the next few months. It may be a bit stressful in the beginning, but I'm sure it will be worth it in the end. Spending the end of the day, relaxing on the patio, surrounded by nature is a great way to decompress.
I'm looking forward to 2020 and discoveries within and without myself. If all goes well and my life is spared, this time next year will see me with 8 months left to getting my doctorate degree, and having made positive steps to secure my retirement financial future and my career satisfaction.
2020 has so many possibilities. I pray that I'm up to the challenge of finding, recognizing, developing and realizing them for my benefit and those around me.
I pray for you what you want for yourself.
Stay blessed,
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