The Midlife part is over....what remains is the crisis!

So I've done the fun stuff. Lots of it, and to be honest, I'm tired of having so much fun LOL. I'm at a crossroad, not so much a crisis. I've decided to finish my undergrad degree, that's the good part, the bad?? I'm sick to death of business administration. So where do I go from here? Still pondering this as I sit here this beautiful morning.

I've decided to just go with the flow. I'm throwing caution to the wind, and trying some of the things I only thought about in the past. I've started eating dessert first, ignoring my phone when I don't feel like talking, not returning messages that say "I know you're busy but I need you to call me concerning...." I'm too busy, doing whatever to be concerned about..."

I've even stopped watching television for weeks at a time. I TiVo the programs I'm interested in, and when bad weather hits, or I just don't feel like doing anything else, spend a day relaxing and watching sans the commercials. My addiction to HGTV, TMC, Law and Order (all of them), Criminal Minds and NCIS are satisfied until the next time.

I've picked up my crochet hook again, watching an idea I had take shape and become a reality is still amazing to me. Plus I enjoy the look on the faces of the people to whom I gift my craft work.

Bit by bit, I'm learning not to multitask, but to enjoy what I'm doing at the moment with all my senses.

Til next time,

Cee...Level

First song...

...I ever heard Fantasia sing had me up and dancing. Re-ran it on my TiVo so many times, my doglets hid the remote.

Sing it Fantasia!!!!

Get on the midlife crisis train

I'll be 46 next month! Wow! My mom's age. Where did the time go? As I sat up in bed one night, I decided that 2007 was the "Me" year. This decision gave me permission "to lose my damn mind", "selfishly put myself first", and of course "break ____'s (insert person of choice's) heart.

How did I manage to do all this? I'll tell ya. I threw away the 6 pairs of shiny slacks I had been wearing for 2 years. I went a little nutty then and discarded the blazers that were so old, they had permanent ring around the wherever you looked. The blouses, yep you got it! Trash bin heaven. I bought stylish, clothes that fit my smaller size and didn't require my monthly trip to the notions store for heavy duty safety pins to keep them up. Outlet malls and consignment shops put down the red carpet when they saw me coming.

The next station the "All About Me" train pulled into..."If I Can Get It Done Between 7am and 4pm" Here it is months later, and co-workers are still saying "I was looking for you around 7pm last night, did you leave early? Hah, not only am I leaving work on time, I'm taking full advantage of the flex time benefit. I even went so far as to learn two new phrases. "I'm going out for lunch" and "you'll have to do it yourself" Thank goodness we have a defibrillator in the building for the times I put them together.

Next I chugged into the "I'm getting my degree and the company is paying" depot with a quick stop into "I need time off for my volunteer work"

I admit to being stalled at the "You're 18 now, handle it yourself" sub station. Now it's far behind me.

While on this journey, I closed down the "sure pay me back when you can" bank, and instead opened the "these are the terms of payments to which you must agree" credit union. Needless to say, the new institution is a miserable failure. No one wants to borrow...must be the fact I now EXPECT to be repaid, and I have no problem going to the bank with you on payday. I decided to keep the train permanently at this station.

How am I cruising through life now? In my brand spanking new Infiniti G35 6MT sports coupe. I'm loving my midlife crisis. Should have had one in my 30's.

Be blessed,

Cee....level